As a new chapter in my life is being written, I look back at my past struggles and finding myself to still be worried about them. I seem to always be stuck in the constant battle with myself. I can never seem to live up to my own expectations. Growing up I was never the "skinny popular girl" but as I became older and entered into high school, it didn't matter as much. When I changed high schools freshman year, I made a vow to myself that I would discover who I am and not let my insecurities hinder me. I have always been down on myself because of the way I looked and in high school, I acted like my weight was an issue. I tended to joke about it and be very social so people knew that I was comfortable with myself. I began to interact more with the student body and try to make myself well known and I did. I graduated feeling pretty good about myself. I had many friends, I was the yearbook chief editor, the head of the prom committee and the class president. The one thing I have never really had is a "boyfriend." There have always been potentials but seeing how insecure I have been about my weight, I just push them away before they can get to know me. I have finally decided to let God take control of my life and if there is someone that he wants me to be with, it will happen on my own. I know that I am no miss America but there is someone out there, I'm just looking to hard. I just need to accept, THIS IS ME!
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