It has been quite some time since my last posting and I apologize! I'm not sure if anyone reads this blog but for me it is a nice way to write what I am feeling and share the struggles I have been facing. To read stuff out on paper helps me realize this life that I am living is real. The past few months have been very great for me! On Feb. 9th I started dating a guy named Josh! The funny thing about him is, we have been friends for about 2 years and I had never seen him as anything but "just a friend." He is such a wonderful guy and I cannot imagin my life without him in it. I have been in many different relationships in the past but none have been as in-depth and as great as this one. Josh is a fabulous guy and he really makes me feel loved when I feel unlovable. It's funny but I see myself compairing our relationship to one out of a movie, but most times this relationship I am in is better than the movie! God has really blessed me! I had always seen myself as not being able to find that one person out there for me and when Josh came along, it was a sign from God that all I needed to do was just trust him and he would supply. Josh is everything that I prayed for and more! I have been blessed with him and his WONDERFUL family. I always say to hi, "Sundays are my favorite days of the week because I get to spend time with your family!!!!" His family is so sweet and I see them as the family that I didnt get to grow up with. I never had the luxuory of growing up with my brothers, my brothers were at least 16 years older than me and were out of the house by the time I was 7 so I never got to connect with them growing up. Also, Josh has a sister that I just LOVE to pieces! She is so sweet and I really do have a lot of fun with her. She is like the little sister that I never had. I feel that the greatest part of Sundays is just getting to eat supper with his parents and siblings. His parents are great and really love their family! The one thing I really miss about growing up without my father is, not being able to have family meals with him and my mother. When my father was alive, every meal was at the table together as a family but once he died it was just me and my mother at the dinner table. I guess it is funny the different things in life that you take for granted. I make sure to always try and point out to Josh along with other that family is the number one thing in life1 I'm not just blessed bu my own family now, I am blessed with another family also! Josh and his family are such a great part of my life now and I thank God every day for bringing them into my life!!!!
